I'm in a better place now. After much persuasion from Chris, I finally sought out professional help. I've had a couple of meetings with a counselor and he managed to help me tune my mental state to be a more positive one. I'm feeling much better now and I think I can do this. I'm actually not ashamed to tell people that I have a meeting with a counselor because I don't think it's something to be embarrassed about. However, some people really should change their views on counselors. Just because I have a counselor to talk to doesn't mean I am mentally unstable or that I am going to commit suicide. I just need a professional to help me identify the reason I think the way I thought before.
I chose to not blog about this earlier because I didn't want to jinx this. I didn't want to go all "hey I'm going to be better now yay!" and then become depressed again.
So, I guess you guys can expect more posts from me now.
